one too many
dreams have 
consumed me 
these past night
i haven’t slept much
my mind will wake
from a slumber 
into a race 
and then i turn over
like a pancake 
or a chicken 
on an oil smothered 
heating pan 
my arm will feel
locked out of place
i’ll move again 
maybe sit up 
then fall back down
to awake in pain
or to urinate 
and the coffees mix- 
won’t you fix 
this malaise?

wrote this one on Tuesday. I took a Klonopin to sleep last night. After an hour it worked and I’m happy to say that there were no interruptions. I’m still tired, even on my second cup of coffee. Showering soon. Fuck. When am I ever going to buy these damned gifts? x